Sometimes it's easier to run than to walk [dated 17th Nov 2014]

[so_catholic]

 
It's overdue, Danny knows that. Like a lot of things in his life right now, he's put it off for too long. He's made half-hearted attempts to apologize but nothing that has made him properly face up to what he did and admit he was wrong to do it.

As much as he's used to people thinking he's cold, mean and hating him, it's not something that naturally sits well with Danny, even when he finds himself doing or saying things that perpetuate that perception of him. Over time he's learnt to ignore the desire to fix it, come to believe that it's out of his control. Inevitable. What's the point of trying to be a better version of himself if the end result is the same every time? People leave. All the more reason to give them absolutely no cause to stay in the first place.

When he knocks on Kevin's door, he's not trying to improve himself. He's going back to basics instead, starting at the bottom. Just trying to be a decent guy.

"Hey...Kevin? Are you in?" He knocks again, wondering if he's calling too late. "It's Danny. Castellano. Subway guy."

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[latterdaysaint]

"Then it's ridiculous, Danny," Kevin says, shrugging. "I think a grown man who chooses to retaliate with unnecessary violence in situations that don't call for it is sort of ridiculous, but that's just me."

[so_catholic]

"Okay..." Danny thanks his lucky stars he didn't know Kevin back in New York. He doesn't think he would have survived his and his Ma's guilt trips. There's no denying it though - it's all really very Catholic of Kevin.

"For the final time then, I'm sorry," he breathes as he unfolds his arms, trying to let the tension go. "You've caught your neck on something, by the way. In case you didn't know." Danny hasn't exactly gone far into Kevin's apartment, so it doesn't take him more than a second or two to be back by the door. "I'll leave you in peace."

[latterdaysaint]

He listened.

Sort of...

Danny keeps talking after the apology, but it isn't to hurl around excuses this time. Kevin nods in response, absently moving a hand to his neck.

"Bye."

[so_catholic]

"Yeah," Danny says quietly to himself as lets himself out of the apartment. When he closes the door behind him, he's not sure if he's made things better or worse than they were before he'd arrived.

Looks like it will take a bit longer for time to tell.