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It's overdue, Danny knows that. Like a lot of things in his life right now, he's put it off for too long. He's made half-hearted attempts to apologize but nothing that has made him properly face up to what he did and admit he was wrong to do it.
As much as he's used to people thinking he's cold, mean and hating him, it's not something that naturally sits well with Danny, even when he finds himself doing or saying things that perpetuate that perception of him. Over time he's learnt to ignore the desire to fix it, come to believe that it's out of his control. Inevitable. What's the point of trying to be a better version of himself if the end result is the same every time? People leave. All the more reason to give them absolutely no cause to stay in the first place.
When he knocks on Kevin's door, he's not trying to improve himself. He's going back to basics instead, starting at the bottom. Just trying to be a decent guy.
"Hey...Kevin? Are you in?" He knocks again, wondering if he's calling too late. "It's Danny. Castellano. Subway guy."
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Date: 2014-11-24 01:57 am (UTC)He doesn't know how it got there, just that he needs to get the stain out. It's a lot less work than the last time he'd had to do this. And there wasn't any brain matter to pull out of his hair.
Kevin doesn't think to put something on over his temple garment before he heads for the door, but once he hears the voice on the other side, he debates on whether or not he wants to answer it at all.
"Great," he mutters, steeling himself for what's bound to be an unpleasant conversation before he opens the door. Danny was involved, of course it was going to be unpleasant. "I know who you are, weirdo. Who does that?"
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Date: 2014-11-24 03:08 am (UTC)Weirdo is better than he'd been expecting but then again, that could be insult of the century for a guy like Kevin.
"Busy?"
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Date: 2014-11-24 01:13 pm (UTC)"I answered the door," he says as a form of response to whether he was busy or not. He couldn't lie and say that he was, but he didn't want to say no, either.
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Date: 2014-11-24 04:15 pm (UTC)It's not the best start and Danny can feel the bitter chill from Kevin's reply, which is all the more proof that he'd really overstepped the mark. He's ashamed to admit that he even needed confirmation but Danny's not used to hitting, then feeling bad, so a big part of him had been hoping he'd been wrong and Kevin had just gotten over it already.
He hefts up his pants by his belt, not exactly relishing the prospect of doing this in Kevin's doorway. "Do you think I could come in?"
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Date: 2014-11-24 04:47 pm (UTC)Taking in a breath, Kevin steps aside on the release to allow Danny inside. He'd probably regret it, but even if he's not the man's biggest fan, he's still too polite to tell him to buzz off and slam the door in his face.
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Date: 2014-11-25 02:07 am (UTC)He's Italian and they're not exactly known for thinking before they speak - or before they act, come to think of it - so maybe he's doomed to fail before he's even put the effort in. He guesses only time will tell.
"Love what you've done with the place," he comments, taking a brief glance around without being too nosy. It's clearly not been professionally-staged but each to their own. "I'm a big fan of minimalism. Okay, that's a lie, I dunno why I said that. I hate minimalism. Minimalist "art"?" He asks, lifting his hands in air quotes. "Like, all you've done is paint the canvas blue, what's that all about? That's not art, am I right? But no, this place looks really easy to clean, it's nice."
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Date: 2014-11-25 02:18 am (UTC)Maybe he could at least paint at some point.
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Date: 2014-11-25 02:35 am (UTC)"About the--has the landlord been giving you any trouble?" He asks, lowering his head as if peering at Kevin over the top of a pair of invisible glasses. "Because he's a total slimeball. So if he's been giving you any trouble, then, y'know, you can tell me and..."
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Date: 2014-11-25 02:40 am (UTC)"Fair warning - he'll probably hit back."
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Date: 2014-11-25 02:57 am (UTC)"I'm a doctor, I help people. If I hit them too they usually deserve it."
Before Kevin, Danny would have said 'always'.
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Date: 2014-11-25 03:11 am (UTC)"And don't hide behind the occupation. It doesn't mean anything."
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Date: 2014-11-25 03:50 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-11-25 01:43 pm (UTC)"You shuffled through excuses after it happened and you're doing it again now. I don't know what you think changed in the past few days that makes them better today."
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Date: 2014-11-25 01:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-11-25 02:08 pm (UTC)It's like trying to reason with a wall. Frustrated, Kevin pushes his fingers through his hair and takes in a breath.
"I know what you're trying to do." He's just really bad at it. "You feel bad, you know you were wrong. So apologize and just... stop talking." The whys don't mean anything to Kevin. The explanations are just insulting and are working against Danny, not for him.
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Date: 2014-11-25 02:25 pm (UTC)"Um, do you," he folds his arms tightly, "do you want me to stop talking right now or apologize first? You just, you gotta be clear otherwise I might make this worse."
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Date: 2014-11-25 03:20 pm (UTC)"H-how are you an actual functioning adult?!" Kevin asks, the heels of his palms pressed hard against his eye sockets.
"I've had to live with a handbook that pretty much forbids me from interacting with certain demographics because, you know, we're grown enough to be sent out across the world and preach the Good Word, but not mature enough to handle the most basic forms of human contact without a companion there to save you from yourself and what you might do or say or-- But then there's someone like you, who doesn't have any of that, completely inept, and is just basically set loose on the general public. How?"
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Date: 2014-11-25 05:49 pm (UTC)That is until yet another insult trips from the Mormon's lips.
"Hey, hey, that's enough," he says, in the same tone of voice he used to use when disciplining Richie. Danny had never, not once, ever hit his brother though. But Kevin, he's clearly mastered the art of pushing. It was exactly that kind of disrespect that had riled Danny up on the subway.
"Did you think before you spoke just then?" he asks, finding it easier to keep his hands to himself this time without the added pressure of the day.
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Date: 2014-11-25 06:09 pm (UTC)"The only reason I'd have to think twice before speaking to you is out of fear of being hit again for saying something you don't like. I'm not doing that, so I hope that wasn't what you were aiming for."
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Date: 2014-11-25 06:24 pm (UTC)His head tips back in defeat. "I'm not trying to scare--I'm not a monster, come on. This is ridiculous."
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Date: 2014-11-25 06:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-11-25 07:06 pm (UTC)"For the final time then, I'm sorry," he breathes as he unfolds his arms, trying to let the tension go. "You've caught your neck on something, by the way. In case you didn't know." Danny hasn't exactly gone far into Kevin's apartment, so it doesn't take him more than a second or two to be back by the door. "I'll leave you in peace."
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Date: 2014-11-25 07:18 pm (UTC)Sort of...
Danny keeps talking after the apology, but it isn't to hurl around excuses this time. Kevin nods in response, absently moving a hand to his neck.
"Bye."
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Date: 2014-11-25 08:49 pm (UTC)Looks like it will take a bit longer for time to tell.